When

 Im still wondering "when"  When is it the time?  When are we allowed to have the happy ending?  When does the rollercoaster stop?  When am I allowed to be the one...to you?   when will this be enough.  when.  Im ready to go home.  wherever home may be.  hoping home will be wherever you are.  Ive hoped and prayed.  prayed to every God known.  begged for the silence to end.  waiting...patiently.   hoping its you.  wanting...it to be you.  Wanting this spell to end.  Missing the touch.  The kiss.  your exhale in my mouth, traveling to my bones and the fibers that make up my soul.  The sweet madness that makes up the spiral dance we knew.  When will it end and when will it begin.  This paradise circus~