Elysium

Ive been fairly quiet lately.  My mind is in a different place.  Im always "in" my mind, but lately ive been there a little more than usual.  Im at that place where a single breath slides down from the jaw line to the neck.  the place where embrace and touch become warmth and fullness and the thought of  being filled with that fullness makes sleep impossible.  I almost want to walk away because the absence of my fear frightens me.  That has never happened.  Most days I love my gift.  Being able to see things and know, have premonition, ESP, deja vu, whatever people want to call it.  I dont even know what to call it.  I dont have it all the time, or maybe I do and just have figured out how to turn it off.  I try often to actually block it because I very much enjoy the element of surprise.  But I cant always block everything.  Patience is not the only thing Im learning lately.  Learning not to open up my mouth in response to things that have not been verbally said, is a challenge.  I have done exceptionally well.  The thought of that place....elysium...its almost enough to keep my breath steady and my hands from shaking when its near.  Almost.