Never

“There will never come a time when I will be able to resist my emotions.” 
― Louise Erdrich, Tales of Burning Love

“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”
― Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum

These Quotes speak volumes to me.  I love when there is another human that sees things in this way.  Life can be disappointing that way.  I have always been a believer in love.  No matter how many times I have been kicked down, broken, shattered, lied to, cheated on, abused, neglected, abandoned.  We all have.  Its just the way it goes.  It still never stopped me from continuing on and finding it again. I have never said the words "never again" rather everytime it ends and I have time to catch my breath and let the smoke clear the room, Ive always said "I cant wait to feel again"  Im such an oddity in the human race anymore.  People are so jaded.  So hurt, scared, fearing, callused.  They run from every emotion and hide from every bit of feeling that can become them.  People are so scared to be figured out.  Scared that they wont be the ones in control anymore.  I hate being in control.  I welcome spinning aimlessly.   To me its the same feeling as getting high and dancing.  Its the best feeling in the world.  When your mind can be free and your body follows suit and moves with every beat, rhythm and the energy and doesnt think about the pain that comes tomorrow or what you may look like as you enter into total freedom and instead  you just close your eyes and explode into waves of pulsating bliss. That is the dance of love ~